Heavy Lifting.

The more aware I am of myself and this life, and the more I try to understand where God is leading me, the more I don’t understand… But the more I am aware of His Presence, and the more I am aware of Who is in control.

I am giving up the need to understand the chaos that is this life… for I lift it up to God’s very capable hands. I will not force it upon myself to attain understanding out of neediness. Understanding and grace will come if my Father grants it. My only action is that of receiving. Acceptance and obedience to His will comes first.

I am giving up the burdens that I unknowingly carry, these burdens are not only mine, but they belong to those who bravely tell me their stories from their own chaotic lives…

Lord, I do not know why she has opted to open up to me with all these things. I do not know why a lady who masks herself with strength has chosen to trust me and let me see her cry.

The weight of the unbeliever’s cross is enough to bring me to my knees, begging for God to forgive the slander in her tongue when she speaks of You unrighteously. Good intentions are powerless if not lifted up to the Lord, and for His Glory.

Help her Father. Have mercy on her. And help me emotionally detach myself. Allow me the grace to let go and lift up my intentions to Your Loving Hands… ready to accept Your will and receive Your loving embrace. This will bring me to Your place of peace.

Proverbs 4

Listen, my sons (my daughters), to a father’s instruction;
pay attention and gain understanding.
I give you sound learning,
so do not forsake my teaching.
For I too was a son to my father,
still tender, and cherished by my mother.
Then he taught me, and he said to me,
“Take hold of my words with all your heart;
keep my commands, and you will live.
Get wisdom, get understanding;
do not forget my words or turn away from them.
Do not forsake wisdom, and she will protect you;
love her, and she will watch over you.
The beginning of wisdom is this: Get wisdom.
Though it cost all you have, get understanding.
Cherish her, and she will exalt you;
embrace her, and she will honor you.
She will give you a garland to grace your head
and present you with a glorious crown.”

Listen, my son (my daughter), accept what I say,
and the years of your life will be many.
I instruct you in the way of wisdom
and lead you along straight paths.
When you walk, your steps will not be hampered;
when you run, you will not stumble.
Hold on to instruction, do not let it go;
guard it well, for it is your life.
Do not set foot on the path of the wicked
or walk in the way of evildoers.
Avoid it, do not travel on it;
turn from it and go on your way.
For they cannot rest until they do evil;
they are robbed of sleep till they make someone stumble.
They eat the bread of wickedness
and drink the wine of violence.

The path of the righteous is like the morning sun,
shining ever brighter till the full light of day.
But the way of the wicked is like deep darkness;
they do not know what makes them stumble.

My son (my daughter), pay attention to what I say;
turn your ear to my words.
Do not let them out of your sight,
keep them within your heart;
for they are life to those who find them
and health to one’s whole body.
Above all else, guard your heart,
for everything you do flows from it.
Keep your mouth free of perversity;
keep corrupt talk far from your lips.
Let your eyes look straight ahead;
fix your gaze directly before you.
Give careful thought to the paths for your feet
and be steadfast in all your ways.
Do not turn to the right or the left;
keep your foot from evil.


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