What is the will of God in my life? That is a question that has been on my mind for quite a long while now. I’ve made changes, some major life decisions, and acted differently to cultivate some sort of new habits because of this eagerness to do the will of God and know what that is. Choices and commitments I’ve made have been tested. I’ve been detaching myself constantly from certain addictions and passions that grew as I was caught blind sighted. I have struggled through unpredictable circumstances, and I’ve battled with my own selfishness and pride on many occasions. I’ve tossed and turned on the question … and finally, just recently made the decision to let go of my results driven attitude — of my eagerness to know what — and instead, submit to this prayer …
Father, I am doing all of these things because I Love You. You know this.
… But teach me how to Love You more.
Today I’ve received a blessing. Our Loving Father has given me a wonderful Gift. He has provided me with an answer.
I realize that I may have been asking the wrong questions. It’s not so much what, but how. I’ve been asking for a concrete task, but He has already provided me, instead, with a Guide. Knowing the task is not as important (it will tempt you to control the process and manipulate an end result). Trusting the Master is.